ignorance

I am so ignorant.
I know what I truly desire is nothing compared to what You have in store for me.
I continue to adore and play with dirt when You're holding out precious gold.
So even if I know this, why do I still continue to hold on? Does this world still have a strong grasp on me?
I remember during one prayer meeting, I had an image of monsters ugly things grabbing me. But they were behind bars and I was on the othe side totally free.
Why do i stand before those bars? Why am i so afraid to walk away.
My pride and stubborness don't want me to take any more steps. I am afraid of seeing something new.
Even though I know its better.

If I Could Choose

If I could choose; had I the choice,
then I would come to you to calm your fears,
to hold your hand and wipe away each tear,
to laugh with you and ever to rejoice
each victory and all the little joys.
And if you hearing this have ears to hear,
I pray our friendship lasts for many years,
for I am blessed each time I hear your voice.
But when I cannot come, then I shall choose
to pray and bless you any way I can,
in word and deed, in preaching the good news
which you believe, for it is better than
our friendship, which I never want to lose,
the friendship God has blessed since it began.